Home Alone

I sometimes love being home alone-I need me time. However the key word here is 'sometimes'.

While staying home can be super relaxing, it does make me feel very lonely and miss my family far away even more. It also forces me to think harder about what I really want in life and I never like the voices in my head - they tell me run away and save my life!

I am so not looking forward to my husband being out of town and spending 2 weeks by myself. I know I will think about a lot of things that I am too much of a chicken to act upon. lol

On the flip side, when I am left alone for an extended time, I start loving the control I have over my life and time. I learn to adjust and stay busy and not worry about anything else...which means I have to readjust when life goes back to normal.

I'm gonna make a deal with myself- I will write everyday and document what is happening- that may help putting things into perspective. until then a lonely goodbye.

3/1/2010

My day today started with almost no sleep...I was not well last night and could not sleep for the life of me. While sleeping, I clearly remember my dream. It amazes me how people from your past haunt you for the rest of your life. I cant help but wonder if dreams have anything to do with reality...if what you see in dreams is something God wants you to realize...I remember thinking about this a few times in life and my dreams have never had much to do with what was happening in life-but I still wonder.

I went to work late and surprisingly my work day went really well. It was one of those days which was like a straight line...not good and not bad. It was smooth but not exciting. The good part was it was not bad and I stayed out of trouble.

I'm watching Ugly Betty now. I love Ugly Betty and am pretty sad this is the last season.